Am I?

am i fallin in love?
really? i'm not that sure
okay i'll tell about him.
first he's my junior. now he's in x accounting 1 and me in xi accounting 1.
second. FRISTLY i pretend to like him just because my mate have a crush on junior too. so i just PRETEND to like him. not for reality
day by day.. i don't know what i just feel like i have a crush on him
every day i just take a look at him if i could
oh i wanna tell you!
that.... i ever gave him greet,
yeah when i don't realize i had a crush on him
me and my mates just walk thu his class and i saw him through the windows. aha
then unpredictly i said "hey (his name)"
and he saw me! and gave a simple smile maybe!
ah fool me! i think my voice wasn't loud enough. but my mate told me that my voice was loud.
oh i know that i'm a foolish girl!
after that day he knew me. he remember my face looks like! ah damn
i saw him when he look at me for some times.
but seems like he's friendly or he's such a flirt boy, everytime when i saw him, he's with some girls.(mostly)
then i found out about his girlfriend.
hm he has a girlfriend brahh.
now i'm confuse again, today he going to ldks, i'm very sad when he left the school. why? -_-
i don't wanna hope so much cause i'm affraid of fallin in love tbh
i'm affraid of pain, heartbreak, tears, and something like that.
i'm affraid of fallin in love. since i know that hurts